Friday, March 27, 2009

Peppermint Tea

I'm hoping this tea holds the secret to keeping the nausea away. We shall see.

Since late last week I've been dealing with the upset stomach and spending my entire days looking for relief. So far I've come to the conclusion that:

I need to constantly eat to keep my stomach happy
Dairy only makes things worse
Protein in the morning is a good thing

So the constant eating has made me gain, and will continue to make me gain god knows how much extra weight. I'm trying to make healthy choices, but sometimes my brain wants junk.

Hopefully this doesn't last to long...

Friday, March 20, 2009

In Pursuit of Happy

Of course I'm thrilled at our results from yesterday, but I haven't had the happy crying breakdown you'd think someone suffering from IF for more than 2 years would have.

I think we IF'ers are so used to disappointment, that when good news comes we remain skeptical. Like we're waiting for the rug to be pulled out from underneath, as it always has in the past. For instance, yesterday when pulling into the RE's parking lot, I said to DH - we'd normally be coming around the same time for the post IVF consult/pep talk. My brain couldn't grasp what we were there for.

So I ask the question - when is it safe to be happy and elated and thrilled? Perhaps all normal preggo women are this cautious, but I've never asked. My heart wants to tell the world about our good news, but at the same time my brain keeps saying - don't do it, you'll only hurt yourself even more.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Love Times Two

Well, today was it. I went into the RE's with feelings of both excitement and terror. My new RE came in (my super fab old one left the practice) and got right down to it. We scanned from left to right and at first he said - over here is where we should see something if there's something to see, and for a split second I saw nothing. He kept it moving and there it was. One beautiful looking sack with pole and heartbeat.

The magic wand kept moving along and the RE says there's the second sac with pole and heartbeat. I could not believe it! My DH felt we were having two, but I couldn't bring myself to believe it, and still can't 4 hours later.

The RE did say 20% of pregnancies that start with twins, end up with "vanishing twin" syndrome - but hopefully that won't happen in this case.

I've since broken the news to my mom and a few close friends. They all freaked. Funny enough - I haven't shed a tear, which you think I would. Guess I'm still in shock.

I'll have video of the entire U/S to post later on once I get home and download.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Be Careful What You Wish For

So last week I was lamenting how I wasn't feeling any of the typical preggo side effects - tiredness, nausea, etc. Starting on Saturday, I think things have begun to change...

Now, since the beginning I have had to get up in the middle of the night and pee (not normal for me) and have had trouble falling back asleep. Now I can add -

Tiredness (Saturday I slept all afternoon)
A little bit of nausea (feeling it right now)

I'm hoping these don't get too extreme and are short lived. This weekend is my busiest weekend at work where I'll be on my feet all day Sat - Tues at a big trade show. Fingers crossed I make it through each day without crashing.

3 days from today - #1 U/S. I really pray everything is OK and where it should be. I think they'll find only one sac in there, my DH thinks two. Stay tuned...

Thursday, March 12, 2009

One Week From Today

I wish I had the same remote control Adam Sandler had in that movie. I'd hit fast forward and jump to one week from right now where we'd just be leaving the RE's with our ultrasound report.

Already ahead of myself, I've scheduled an appt with my OB for next month. At that point I'll be 10 weeks along - crazy!!

Other than the waiting for time to fly, DH and I are also waiting to hear back on an offer that was made on our house. They bid low (not surprising) but we've countered back a couple of times, so I'm really hoping they've agreed to move forward! It would be fantastic to reduce our living expenses right now so we can save up for the little one in November. We shall see!

I can't tell if I'm just feeling really tired, or if I'm getting a cold since everyone around me is sick. I'm hoping its not the latter.

Monday, March 9, 2009

5 Weeks Down, 35 To Go

The wait between now and my first U/S feels like an eternity. I wish I could press a fast forward button and jump 10 days.

I also went to the RE's for one more bloodtest over the weekend. I didn't need to do it, but felt I needed that extra reassurance. So far so good, my level jumped up to 1650.

Still feeling the same side effects as before - tender bbs, peeing more often, AF-style cramps (although they seem to be less than last week). I've also noticed that I have an occasional hot flash - I had one last night around 12:30 AM, had a cramp and had to pee all at the same time. After I came back to bed I had a hard time falling back asleep. My bum area is so sore from all the PIO shots, I'm finding it hard to lie on my back in bed.

On a good note - I met up with my fellow IF'er Nadia yesterday for lunch and wandering around the maternity stores. She talked me into getting something so I got a pair of sweatpants. They look pretty similar to normal pants, so I figured what the heck. I did try on one of those pillows that MimiMaternity has to see what I'll look like later on, and even then I still wasn't as large as my friend. (She's having twins and is 6 months along). It was hilarious!

November 9th can't come soon enough.

Friday, March 6, 2009

Relocating to the state of Disbelief!

Maybe when we have our first ultrasound and I can see something in there, I'll really believe its true.

Everyone I tell (my closest friends and family who've followed along with my IF journey) is over the moon. My mom is already thinking about planning a shower! (She's nuts).

In all the excitement, DH and I are only taking it day by day, grateful that it hasn't all just fizzled away yet, like so many other past hopes.

This weekend I get together with a fellow IF-er who's now preggo with twins. I remember her telling me in the beginning she was also in denial. Maybe seeing her will help me think ahead to the future in a positive light. We'll see!

In other news, DH thinks my boobs are even larger (they are already huge) and I am noticing that I'm getting tired during the day. Now that I think of it, I haven't been to bed later than 9 all this week!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

So Far So Good

Waiting for my second beta today was worse than waiting for the results on Tuesday! At least then I knew (because I cheated) that something was going on, today I had no idea!

At noon when the RE still hadn't called I broke down and called. The nurse said my HCG was 639 (so more than double), progesterone was good and I can start weaning myself off the estrogen patches.

I go in for my fist U/S two weeks from today - 3/19.

Fingers crossed (again!) that everything stays where it needs to be and we have good results on U/S day!

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Bigger Ray of Hope

Yippee! I just got the call and my HCG levels are good (245), progesterone is good, estrogen is good. I go back on Thursday for the next bloodwork round.

I am totally bloated and have requested DH to bring me some Gatorade at lunch.

On a downward note - my beloved RE has left the practice! I couldn't believe it! The nurse just told me it was sudden, and he wanted to go in a different direction. My regular OB knows him pretty well, so I'll have to get the scoop when/if I make it to my first appointment.


Monday, March 2, 2009

Tiny ray of hope

Ok, so after the AF-style cramping all weekend and the beta looming tomorrow I decided to test at home this morning.


It took no time at all for the positive to show up - I used a Safeway Early HPT.

I'm excited, but trying to maintain a calmness b/c we all know there's a long way to go before I can relax.

I'll test again tomorrow morning and then go in for beta. I'm already thinking that something will show up and I'll probably go in for a second beta later on this week.

Keep our fingers crossed for good things to keep on happening!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Cramp On/Cramp Off

Well I'm 2 days away from beta (9dp3dt) and stating on Friday I noticed period-style cramping that would start and then stop. This cramping has happened over the entire weekend and I keep running to the bathroom to wipe and see if I notice any red. So far nothing yet - but I have decided (if AF holds off) to test tomorrow morning and the morning of Beta to feel a bit more prepared. Hopefully I'll get the answer I've been waiting for!

Other then that, not to much else happening.